I ended this week sort of feeling like a bad mom. Now, let me start this post by saying, I am aware that I am not ACTUALLY a bad mom. But if you just finished the week I finished, you might feel the same exact way as I do.
In fact, if you’re a mamma, you’ve DEFINITELY felt this way at times. Probably a lot of times.
My kids gave me a run for my money this week. I am not sure what is going on. I thought they were getting sick, THAT’S how weird they were acting. Just acting out, disobedient, fighting, crying, hitting, talking back- you name it. It left ME crying a lot this week, if I’m being honest here. When all was said and done, and when they DIDN’T get sick, I pretty much summed up the week as this: I HAVE A TWO YEAR OLD AND A FOUR YEAR OLD.
Enough said, yes? YES, WE ALL AGREE.
So it was a hard and exhausting week. Being a mom is not easy. Being a GOOD mom is even harder. And I could write a sappy post about how all the hard work, blood, sweat and tears is all worth it because my kids are the best thing that has ever happened to me. And it would be true. But I’m not going to say that here, in this post. Because while it IS true, it is totally ok to get through the week, to look back and to say THAT SUCKED.
And while last week was one of the hardest that I’ve had as a mamma, I do know that even though it sucked and doesn’t seem worth it right now, IT WILL BE. So, I try to be grateful for weeks like the one I just had as a mom. It wasn’t easy, but anything worth doing isn’t easy. It would be easy for me to give in to their every want, need, fit, and tantrum. It would be easy to just allow them to form bad habits. But in being consistent, firm and disciplining them, we are hoping and praying that those two little boys will grow up to be amazing men someday. Not a day goes by that I don’t pray for that for them.
Never have I been at the feet of Jesus more than I am in my role as a mother. And although weeks like this past one are discouraging, it also encourages me to press on. Because forming their little minds, characters and hearts isn’t something that can be done overnight. It takes a lot of time, and a lot of intention. As well as a decent amount of tears and frustration. But it’s ok. It IS worth it. They are worth it.
If you’re a mamma who’s had a similar week to mine, take heart. If it’s hard. it’s probably because you’re doing something right (even though it might not feel like it!). Next week will be better and if it’s not, know you’re not alone. And then call me and we’ll go out for an evening to escape the madness.
* All photos here taken on my iPhone this week for my Instagram. You can follow me there as well at @stellardayblog.